I am guilty! I have been known to say some of these phrases in my past: “I really felt the presence of God this weekend in worship and church:” or “I’m having a hard time lately…and I just don’t feel God with me.”

I have seen and witnessed the power of God in my life and others around me. On the other hand, I’ve also have been through life when my Lord has be silent. This happens more than the other. I have questioned, “How can I get this feeling or experience back again? Has God put me on this earth just to have an experience?” 

Yes…. and No.

God wants me to experience His Love, Power, Holiness, Forgiveness, etc. But there will be many times when He is silent. It is during this time, we can suffer. His Word tells us that we will go through these trials. My sufferings made me look at myself and as I read His Word, I compared my life to Jesus and His disciples.

The Cost Of Following Jesus

Acts 9:16 It is revealed to Paul that he will suffer if he is to follow Jesus. Luke 23:26 Jesus said, “And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.”

Eight years ago after pondering these verses along with others scriptures, I have decided that I don’t need to get a daily experience from God. I am sold out for Him and will accept anything that comes my way. My job is to make Him known to all. I want to give instead of receive. My reward will be to experience Him for eternity when I’m in heaven. Until then…..there is work to be done.